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In search for a home ...


You can never go back to the same place twice. Something has always changed a little. You have changed, the place has changed, the people in it ... it’s not the same and you need to visit it with new eyes, no expectations, no lofty thoughts of wanting to go back to something. You can’t go back to anything, things are in constant movement and so are you. You must keep moving forward, on and on and not fight it. The ones who fight the natural flow of life will go against the current and nature is stronger than will. 

I spent my youth on the road, running from something or searching for something — I could never figure out which one. When you refuse to settle down, are you leaving something behind, or are you running towards something new? Maybe both. 

I was looking for my place. A space of belonging and peace of mind where I could be greeted with smiles, accepted for whoever I was that day and let my hair down; not feel the need to be somewhere else far, far away. I loved the road because as long as I was on it, I wasn’t completely lost — I was still going somewhere and there was still hope for me. 

I packed up my room in Hamburg a few months ago. gave back my keys, threw off all the heavy possessions I’d collected the last 2 years from anxious living, hoping they would ease me, but they never did, of course, only kept me down and stuck. Things.. things.. so many things you think you need and sometimes I think we buy stuff just to feel like we’re living a little.. we’re not just scraping by. We have stuff. 

I had no plan, as I left. Just my dream. still. It’s still alive, after all these years. I still believe in it. In the pure, innocent act of sharing something with someone else. My songs, my voice, my stories... my attention? I’d like to give people my attention. I’d like to make people feel seen, and heard. I’d like to make people feel special. Like, you’re with me now. We got each other’s back. 

I get tired and scared, freak out and run away, because I fall into phases of trying to fit in. Trying to align, make a living, co-live with others. I panic because I’m still on this road and I still have nothing and I still don’t know how to pay my next rent or if this is all a big joke on me, no even cares but.... Then I leave for the road. Just a week or two. And it’s all right there. 

I have my dream, my vision, my guitar, a few belongings and no other plan than to sing my heart out for whoever comes to listen (however few they were) every single night, and I never feel so calm. So at ease. So aligned to my call and nature and story and I never feel as home as I do on that stage, sharing my stories, knowing things will be okay if I just keep doing this. If I just stop doubting it and dare to trust it, full out, no stop. 

It was different this time. I was not running from something. I was not searching for something, some far off future. I was right there, in it, in the middle of every moment, not wanting to be somewhere else or someone else. I was happy where I was, all the time. I was so happy. 

So maybe a PLACE of belonging doesn’t exist. Maybe it’s more a state of mind. Maybe that city or town, house or person was a romanticised idea that you can keep searching for you whole life, always being slightly off. Because maybe home is a state of mind. 

Because sitting here, writing this, wherever I might be, I feel at home. and at peace. and I am happy for the time being. And I know as long as I keep doing this, I will be okay. So maybe instead of searching far and wide for a city or person or job or house to make you feel at home, you need to build your home in moments of belonging. Doing something you love, with someone you love, in a place you love, right now. But tomorrow that place will be different, and you will go on, feeling at home, wherever you are, because it’s all in your mind, you see.

You’re already home.



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